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Friday, October 31, 2014

Genesis 34

This is a difficult chapter to read. I have a problem with men who think they can just force themselves upon a woman. Of course if it were a role reversal, I would still have a problem with it. To disrespect someone in such a way is beyond me. However what Jacob's sons did is not acceptable either. It is for God to take revenge for those who need it, not us. But i can understand their reasoning. Had someone hurt my sister in such a way, it would be hard for me to just stand by. 

Lord, please heal those who have been hurt by the hand of othes. Help mend them, as they may feel broken, and help calm the storm that arises in their loved ones. Help them to see you are the ultimate judge. Amen. 

Thursday, October 30, 2014

Genesis 32 & 33

Good morning. I had the ultrasound yesterday and baby is well. The little thing was just moving all over! 

In these two chapters, Jacob is frightened by the idea that his brother is angry and will harm him. God already told him to go home and God will protect him. But Jacob's fear, especially when he hears Esau is coming with 400 men, takes over. He tries to divide up the camp in case one is overtaken, the other shall continue. He tries to send droves of animals ahead to appease Esau. And when Esau did show up, Esau ran to Jacob and embraced him! Forgiveness is powerful. As powerful as guilt. 

This is same way Jesus wants to have us. He wants to find those who have turned away and run to them and embrace them. He wants to forgive them for their transgressions and have them back in the family. It is our guilt that prevents us from being found. We try to hide when we have done something wrong, or try to buy back people's affection. Jesus doesn't want that, and neither did Esau. He was just so happy his brother had returned. 

Lord, I ask forgiveness daily yet I am weary to give it to others in fear of being hurt again. But I know that you forgive unconditionally, even though you know i may fall again. Please help me to not be fearful in seeking forgiveness and in giving forgiveness where it is needed. Amen

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Genesis 31

Good morning y'all. I hope everyone is having a blessed week. I am super excited because today is my first OB visit for this pregnancy. I' m hoping I get to see baby via Ultrasound today. Also I need to get a prescription for Zofran because my remedies are not helping this "morning" sickness much. Is everyone gearing up for Trick or Treat? My daughter has been practicing saying "trick or treat" all week, and we have been counting down using a paper chain. I'm hoping to finish our costumes today, so I can post a picture soon.

S: Genesis 31:49-50 ...May thenLord keep watch beaten you and me when we are out of each other's sight. If you mistreat my daughters, or take other wives besides my daughters, remember that even though no one else is about, God will be witness between you and me. 

O: Laban doesn't have to witness if Jacob fails to keep his promise, because God will see it. 

A: growing up, I feared displeasing my parents. It really would make me sick to my stomach if I did something that I knew my parents would not be proud of. I wasn't taught that even more importantly, I may have done something displeasing to God. I am trying to teach my daughter that even though mommy and daddy can't watch her all the time, that God is always there and sees her. I' m hoping to help keep her more accountable for herself not through worrying about displeasing me, but moreover trying to always please God. That is the more important goal anyway. 

P: lord, please help me continue to guide my children toward you. I want to raise respectful, God-fearing daughters and sons that know you are the ultimate goal. Amen. 

Monday, October 27, 2014

Genesis 30

In chapter 29, God heard Leah's pains and gave her children. In chapter 30, Rachel got jealous, and instead of praying to God for children of her own, she insisted Jacob sleep with her slave and give he children through the slave. Sarah did this to Abraham because she couldn't wait on God's timing, and then became envious of here slave to the point of beating her. 

Rachel couldn't wait for God's timining, but felt vindicated when her slave had a son for her. This battle continued on between the sisters, as Leah allowed Jacob to Impregnate her slave, and then Leach had two more sons of her own. If you do the math, this was approximately 10 years worth of a fight between the sisters. Finally, God heard Rachel's prayer and gave her a son, Joseph. 

Sometimes we want something so badly, we do whatever it takes to get it, without thinking of the consequences. Instead, we need to take the time to pray about it to God, and if He sees it as a necessity in our life, it will happen. But on his terms and in his timeline. We need to learn as a society to not be greedy, but it is hard being that people grow up from kids with then "Gimmie, gimmie, gimmie" attitude thinking they are owed everything. 

We need to practice patience. I've heard it's a virtue ;)

Lord, help my soul and mind to be patient. Help me see that if it isn't meant to be, I am better off without whatever I think I want. You are the one who can fulfill our needs. Amen.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Genesis 29

Jacob had tricked his father into getting Esau's blessing. Then Jacob is threatened and leaves. He travels to a land where he has relatives of his mother, and sees Rachel and falls in love with her. After making a deal with Laban, to feel him 7 years to be able to wed Rachel,, Jacob consummated marriage with Leah instead of Rachel. He feels tricked by Laban. But this is very similar to what Jacob did to his own father. Jacob is allowed to marry Rachel and works with Laban longer.

Laban was only doing what a father should. Back in those days, the first born had more rights than their siblings. As Esau was supposed to have birthright and a blessing, Leah should have been married first. Maybe the way Laban went about this wasn't right, but he was following the customs of his land. I am curious about the multiple wives that men have in those testament. And the babies born with their slaves. My husband always said "One wife telling me what to do is enough." He  is only picking, but it's good to know he feels that way. I digress...

Im having a hard time finding something in particular to think deeper on in this chapter. In the second half, God hears Leah's pain and gives her 4 sons. But she still lacks the affection from Jacob. Hopefully she knew that it is the love of God alone that can totally fulfill our needs. Otherwise, that sounds pretty terrible. 

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Genesis 28

Genesis 28:15 Know that I am with you; I will protect you wherever you go, and bring you back to this land. I will never leave you until I have done what I promised you.

To me this is a  powerful verse. I know there are several other times in the bible that "I am with you" is found. God continually is calling to us to let us know he is there. Here, God is telling Jacob to have faith and know He is there as he prepares on his journey. He wants Jacob to trust in Him as did Issac and Abraham. 

Are there times in our lives where we can hear God calling us, telling us he is there? Sometimes it's harder to hear than others. Let's imagine we are outside on a nice day, let's say sunny and 65, looking at a beautiful field. The we feel a nice breeze come across the field. Do you ever think that's God saying "I am here with you"? It may be easier to imagine him there when we are having easy days. But it's the days that are hard that we need to know he is there. And he is. Remembered the poem about the footsteps? Where the man, looking back on his life, says he sees two sets of footprints for a while but he sees only one set during the bad days. And God (it may have been Jesus) tells him that's because He was carrying the man during the bad days. God is always with us. Listen for him.

Lord, I pray that I always a, willing to open my ears and my heart to hear you say you are there. That I know I am never really alone. Amen. 

Friday, October 24, 2014

Genesis 27

Deception; to deceive; to mislead by a false appearance or statement. Jacob did just that by appearing as if he was his brother Esau and telling his father such. He mislead his father to receive a blessing meant for Esau. This is not Jacob's deception alone: his mother Rebekah was the instigator. Jacob must flee because of his deception, so that his brother does not kill him. So Jacob and his mother are now separate from each other because of their lies. 

How easy it is to deceive. We learn to do it as children with "little white lies." We  do these things to gain something or to make ourselves look good. We don't think anyone will find out. And maybe no one will. But the bigger problem at hand is one person knows. Besides you. God knows. He knew the moment you let the words slip out. He was the one pulling on our heart to stop. He is our conscious that makes us toss and turn at night after we have deceived someone. He is there. 

In Mark 4:22 it is written: "For there is nothing hidden except to be made visible; nothing is secret except to come to light." I have always taken that verse to mean that any deception we try to hide will be made known. Someone will figure it out, or we will be truthful, but even if that doesn't happen, it will be made light on our judgement day. God knows of every deception we have done. It is the dark one whispering in our ears to continue on with the lies. We must stand firm and tell him to move back. We must not falsely aquire things that epwere not meant for us. We must stand with God against the devil, against deception, against all evil. This is a daily struggle. It is so easy to let one little white lie slip out. But befor you know it, that lie can snowball out of control. 

Lord, please help me to stand firm against deception. I do not want to gain things that aren't meant for me. I only want them if you meant them for me. I pray I can stand firm against the devil's whispers. Amen.